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Jun. 20th, 2004

All you people who good things are happening to? All of you folk who have told me recently about situations that I would like to be in but cannot? All of you who have been doing the hanging out thing that I havn't been able to get to? All of you who connect with others, and are loved as a result?

I'm happy for you, I really am.

Just pardon me if I get the odd stab of regret and jealousy. If I withdraw, it's not because I dislike you or feel bad that things are going your way. As happy as I am for you, I cannot escape my own childish, selfish stab of pain.

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real_bad_karma
Jun. 20th, 2004 05:22 am (UTC)
I umm dont know how to respond.
life is what you make it.
there are times when it does seem to beat up on you. that is just it, you gotta get back up on your feet and stop being the victim. we are all guilty of it. there are times where i wish i could just cry my life away, playing the victim of life, always picking on me.
i dont believe anyone i know is living the life they thought they would be living when they were younger. we make choices and there are consequences for each one of those choices. not all of those choices are made by us, there are those that makes some for us. you just have to roll with the punches that are delivered and try to capitilise on the opportunites that come your way.
the thing with an opportunity is that it always looks much bigger going that when it is comming.
you cannot live a life of regret. if you are always looking backwards you cannot see what is comming towards you. sure, again it is easier said than done and there are many things in my life i wish i could change. my weight, my fitness, my job my overall sense of life satisfaction. this is what makes the rare times i get out with friends all the more special and makes me more determined to have a good time but get out as often as i can. the old saying goes "you are a long time dead." which in a more modern cliche is you are here for a good time not a long time.
the only person that can enure you have the best time of it is you. so get out and have some fun. life is different from when you were at school. people change as have you and people drift. it pains us all to see that you are in struggling, the only person that can fix that is you. we care and are all here to support you and offer a hand to get you back on your feet.
feel free to drop me a line, i also should have a day off some time this week, as i got the pleasure of working saturday and sunday ontop of a normal week. *hugs*
punk_rock_nerd
Jun. 20th, 2004 09:42 am (UTC)
I know I promised never to say this again, but I think you need a tongue-lashing. *hugs* No, not really. What you need is a good old dose of DDR.

How about Tuesday?
mareth_redorb
Jun. 20th, 2004 03:38 pm (UTC)
Welcome to inhumans anonymous
Hi. I'm Mik. I've felt detached from humanity for fifteen years now...

But seriously.

After so many years of looking outside for answers, studying the various religions, looking to other people who appear to be in a better position or better off, be it mentally, socially, financially or emotionally, I've found that the only person capable of giving me answers is the one I despise and loathe the most. Me.

Life sucks, don't it?

Despite how you feel, there will be people waiting for you on the other side, who will welcome you back if you've been away from them, for whatever reason and for those who've stayed, well, they'll recognise the change and be happy for you. (Still freaks the hell out of me when people are positive, nice and accepting of me, especially those who aren't gamers).

Good luck on your journey through the darkness to find the answers.
blackwood70
Jun. 20th, 2004 04:33 pm (UTC)
Just pardon me if I get the odd stab of regret and jealousy. If I withdraw, it's not because I dislike you or feel bad that things are going your way. As happy as I am for you, I cannot escape my own childish, selfish stab of pain.

---Which is completely normal... we all suffer from these thoughts and feelings at one time or another. I can only speak for myself but when I feel like that I try and use the 1/2 full - 1/2 empty method. I try and look at my life as being half full not half empty, its amazing how many positives you can get from using that approach! It works for me anyway... that and you seem to have a lot of good friends about, talk to them... they always help to make you feel better!
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