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So.

I got my form to renew my scholarship, which I have to hand in with my extention of candidature form. There's just one problem - it's practically unheard of to get the second scholarship renewal.

This is my second.

Now, I had always been told that I would have funding for three years - and given I went without funding for the first year, that means funding up until the end of my fourth year. Or, at least, that is what I believed - apparently, this may not be the case.

One supervisor is away for 4 weeks on holiday (in, I belive, Bali), and the other is probably going to remain home sick today. Which means there is no one I can go to to try and get this massive drama cleared up.

I'm trying to tell myself that it doesn't matter. I'm trying to convince myself that I hate it here anyway, and that if it all falls flat I can just turn around, give the PhD the finger, and get a real job. It sucks that life is so centered around money. It sucks that I've been worried about not having enough money to live on since I was 5. It sucks that I am terrified of failing.

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morsla
Aug. 25th, 2005 12:49 am (UTC)
What type of scholarship is it? APA and MRS scholarships for PhD studies are set at three years, with the possibility of extending them to 3.5 years if you recieve an extended tenure. They should only cap at two years (or the duration of the course) for Masters degrees.

Can you pin down a person in the scholarships office, and make them answer your questions? They are supposed to be open from 9-5:15. Contact details for all the staff are here.

There's a chance that the tangled snarls in your paperwork happened because people in your department had absolutely no clue about what they were doing... in that case, taking matters outside the department might help you to get a more objective opinion.
miss_rynn
Aug. 25th, 2005 01:02 am (UTC)
As I was never good enough to qualify for any of the standard scholarships, I am on (and have always been on) a "special postgraduate studentship award" or some such. The scholarship is basically handled in-house, from what I understand. Which means, from what I understand, that I am basically up poop creek without a paddle.
morsla
Aug. 25th, 2005 01:20 am (UTC)
Ah, okay. There are a limited number of APA and MRS scholarships for the uni - most of them are allocated to departments and faculties based on the previous year's postgrad enrolments, with the rest forming a pool that any department can theoretically get at.

As Dental Science probably doesn't have nearly as many postgrad students as the larger departments, they wouldn't be likely to secure many scholarships from either of those programs - it's quite likely that they don't get any guaranteed ones to give out, which means all their students have to join the melee to fight it out for the unallocated places.

To counter that, many of the departments have a small scholarship fund available to handle in-house scholarships - they've realised that their research degrades if they force all the postgrads to eat gruel for three years, and (more importantly for them) their enrolments drop off... without enrolments, they lose government funding and they can't pursue their obsessionsprojects.

Earthsci also had a fair few people on departmental scholarships. They are still supposed to be on par with the university (MRS) and government (APA) ones, though - in fact, the staff can get very defensive about any implication that they aren't. Keep pushing - if nothing else, they've invested a couple of years of resources into you, and if you drop out without submitting anything then they've lost money on you... you should be able to get the third year.
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designadrug
Aug. 25th, 2005 01:19 am (UTC)
Good luck. I was in a very similar position. No funding first year, then two years of funding and *snip*.
iosef
Aug. 25th, 2005 02:32 am (UTC)
Hugs, and good luck anyway.
PS Things went sort of OK, but not as well as I hoped.
miss_rynn
Aug. 25th, 2005 03:26 am (UTC)
Well, that's good, but not as good as it could be. I hope things will work out okay in the long run.
mareth_redorb
Aug. 25th, 2005 05:44 am (UTC)
*hugs*

You'll come out ok.
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