Oh, CWA...

Of course the first recipe I try is one of those recipes that isn't actually written down, but passed on by word of mouth. For example, ingredient amounts vary wildly (1/2 to 1 cup of coconut?), a lack of pan size (20 x 20 cm? 20 x 30? It's a mystery!) and a lack of baking time - just "bake until done".

Still, I guess that once I make more of these more free-form CWA recipes I'll eventually get good at the guessing ;)

Bake the Pain Away

What have I been up to lately? Well, I've been having some stressful difficulties at work that have been slowly eroding my soul. So I have fallen back on my favourite stress relief - baking.

And in a fit of madness, I decided to make a cooking blog.

Because clearly what I need is to put myself up for even more public judgement. YAY.

(Seriously, though, I love baking.)

I hate being not well.

I've been using to keep a track of my mood fluctuations and all that jazz. It's a great resource, but it makes me feel sad to see little graphs of my symptoms staring me back in the face, taunting me with "mwahahaha, see how miserable you can be on bad days".

Today wasn't bad, though. I wasn't an emotional wreck during Sensei Nagae's memorial service because I hopped myself up on xanax just before it started. Of course, this left me dopey and out of it for the rest of the day, but that's okay. The ceremony was lovely, and I think Mrs Nagae was grateful that so many wished to show their respects.

My knees are really shitting me, particularly going to the dojo. I can't put any weight on a bent knee at the moment, which cuts out sune cuts, seiza, jogeburi, happoburi, or even putting on my armor correctly. I can be hit by others as a motodachi, but I'm disappointed in myself that I can't properly spar or demonstrate techniques. I expect there will be a lot of instruction in my future, which is all well and good, but I'm worried that my form will slip badly because of it.

On the other hand, I am trying to be philosophical about it. I think it will give me more of a chance to practice shinpan, and therefore force my students to do more shiai and engi. I need to stop thinking of myself as a fellow student and more of an instructor. It's a matter of trying to make the best of a bad situation.

I'm reluctant to start on any stength training or physiotherapy for my legs until I've seen a specialist, but there are some things that I think I would like to do in the meantime. I think I will take this opportunity to start building up arm and upper body strength with weights, and abdominal strength with various types of sit ups and the like. Anything that doesn't put strain on my knees in any way. I think I'd also like to try out swimming and see how that goes. So, I guess I'm in the market for a new swimsuit :P
smirk - by me

Writer's Block: Life imitating art

Which movie or book character are you most like, and why?

Honestly, I have no idea. The misunderstood Danish prince in me always had a soft spot for Katchoo from "Strangers in Paradise", but if you know the series you know how unlike my life her's is. I also identify strongly with Anne Elliot from "Persuasion", but again there are too many differences to say that I'm really like her.

I'm going to take a leaf out of krysadis; I'm super curious as to who you think I'm like. Screened for the time being, but I'll unscreen when it looks like I'm not getting any more.
science - by delwyn for me


Seriously. For their sake, and for the sake of the rest of the population.

"Data 'faked' on vaccine dangers
January 7, 2011

AN INFAMOUS 1998 study that ignited a worldwide scare over vaccines and autism - and led millions of parents to delay or decline potentially lifesaving vaccinations for their children - was ''an elaborate fraud'', according to a scathing three-part investigation in the British Medical Journal.

The study has long since been debunked and dismissed by the scientific community, which points to 14 studies that have failed to find any link between vaccines and autism.

Last year, The Lancet issued a formal retraction and British medical authorities found the study's lead author, Andrew Wakefield, guilty of serious professional misconduct, stripping him of his ability to practise medicine in Britain.
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Now, the British Medical Journal reports that Dr Wakefield, who was paid more than $US675,000 ($A676,000) by a lawyer hoping to sue vaccine makers, was not just unethical but falsified data in the study, which suggested children developed autism after being vaccinated against measles, mumps and rubella.

In fact, the children's records show some had symptoms of developmental problems long before being vaccinated. Several had no autism diagnosis at all.

Dr Wakefield could not be reached for comment.

Vaccination rates in England plummeted after his news conference to promote his study.