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Time slips through the fingers

First up - I forgot to mention that Mrs Nagae has actually started teaching me zenichi. My impressions of my five minute lesson on bowing are that it is way, way hard, and I will destory my knees.

Second of all, I had a playtest for my game yesterday. It was good that I decided to playtest this year, as the game while not exactly shit has a lot work that needs to be done for it to be a good game. As it stands, it is mediocre. I abhor mediocrity.

Thirdly, it was my first day back at work today. I almost burst into tears only two or three times, and I even managed to supress the gut-wrenching anxiety for half an hour or so. I am not happy there; weather this is a current thing or an on-going thing I am unsure. A person who I look at as kind of a PhD mentor who has offered me a great deal of advice in the past has suggested that I think about deferring as an option.

Now all I need to do is find the courage to explain what is going on to my supervisors. Oh, and to apply for special consideration. Stupid head.

I am left feeling exhausted, and disappointed that I'm going to have to do it all over again tomorrow.