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I have a confession to make. bishi_wannabe has been schmoozing on forums and getting contacts with people 'in the industry'. Game writers, designers and artists. You know, the real deal. People who write for Exalted, for Weapons of the Gods, and other such things. He's been musing out loud about how he thinks he may be able to become a published game writer himself in the future...

... and it makes me seeth with jealousy.

I want to be a professional game/scenario writer soooooooo badly that sometimes it makes my heart race thinking that it might maybe be a possibility one day. I want to write modules that are published world-wide that work their way into the psyches of gamers everywhere. I want people to see my name as an author and get excited about the possibility.

Isn't that what we all want? To do something we love and recieve recognition for it? That is why I want to write for cons (even if I don't enjoy the actualy game running side of it - I enjoy the knowledge that I have provided the best entertainment I can). That is why I keep striving to improve my games. That is why I get so disappointed if even *one* person at a con doesn't enjoy a game I write, why I feel that I have personally failed them.

Recently, mousebane and Lon were approached by the Godfather of Gaming, the Don of the Melbourne con scene, who requested that they run him and his crew one of their old con games. That filled me with jealousy as well.

In any case, I have always looked up to the BNGs of Australia, and strived to emulate their skill. Ever since I got into the gaming thing. I suppose I had always hoped that I would one day be included in their elite ranks. Imagine my surprise, then, when I was, in passing, refered to as a BNG by one of the BNGs I had respected and admired the most...

I'm not sure if I can be truly counted as a BNG yet, but I can tell you this for sure - this recent event has made me more determined than ever to try to be worth of it.


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May. 3rd, 2005 01:28 am (UTC)
"refered to as a BNG by one of the BNGs I had respected and admired the most...

I'm not sure if I can be truly counted as a BNG yet

You and me both.
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May. 3rd, 2005 02:09 am (UTC)
Big Name Gamer.
May. 3rd, 2005 02:00 am (UTC)
*smacks forehead*

You know, if you want to start writing scenarios for publishers, you need to start submitting them. Just like movie scripts and books.

You should. Your games are good.
May. 3rd, 2005 02:05 am (UTC)
Problem is, I'm not sure that my games are good enough *yet*. And the PhD is getting in the way of practicing...
May. 3rd, 2005 02:17 am (UTC)
How do you know unless you try? You are, remember, a perfectionist ;^)

Have you seen some of the SHITE modules out there? Yuors kick arse compared to them!
May. 3rd, 2005 02:02 am (UTC)
The trick is to be known as a SMOG (secrit master of gaming), thats my goal.

I'm curious - who do you consider to be the godfather of gaming?
May. 3rd, 2005 02:03 am (UTC)
The man himself, Mr Gary Faye.
May. 3rd, 2005 02:38 am (UTC)
re: BNG
I also consider Gary Faye as the Godfather of Gaming... he's the GM I've always tried to emulate in regards to player enjoyment in my own games.
May. 4th, 2005 12:54 am (UTC)
Ah... okay - actually I remember being rather proud when he bounced up to me at the conquest we ran the Storyteller game and told me it was the most fun/best game he'd played at a con in years.

I'm considered a BNG - and mainly I think because I'm loud and the attention Will Fuck got. You've written far more games that me and been a recogised player/lumberjack in con scene for years - definately you are BNG!
May. 11th, 2005 11:24 pm (UTC)
I think its safe to assume (simply by their presence on this thread and their presence in the rpg scene in general) that there are a fair few BNG's from the Oz scene here...

It would be a monumentally huge event if we could somehow get the 'cream of the crop' (the people who have given the most players enjoyment --- and how would you rate that?) together to run a 'supercon' to help bring our fav hobby some well deserved attention...

Just one of those stupid improbable thoughts that I often have...
May. 3rd, 2005 02:20 am (UTC)
:) Secret handshakes and special robes are needed for gaming sessions in the Secrit Masters gaming clubhouse. Maybe the masons are all just gamers?

I think I'm aiming for an ING (Invisible Ninja Gamer) title. I write so many games with other people that no-one really knows who I am... maybe, I never existed at all?

*throws smokebomb at ground, and vanishes*
May. 3rd, 2005 02:56 am (UTC)
To be perfectly honest I had always considered you a BNG. A talented player without a doubt, and I wish I had even half the skill at writing you have demonstrated in the past.
May. 3rd, 2005 07:33 am (UTC)
so it goes ... SMOG ... BNG ... NG ... NNG ...

You've written games for conventions for over a decade, over 10 games to your name, over 300 ppl from over 3 states have played your games ... because your games are good and you're known for them...
You're a big name gamer ... once you hit the second decade missy, you stepped a grade ...

For SMOG you need to ... uurccc ... can't breath ...
May. 3rd, 2005 08:10 am (UTC)
Careful, BenK may be listening....
May. 3rd, 2005 08:13 am (UTC)
In all seriousness, the way elindal got published was to submit material to an open writing call for Penumbra, and they liked his material so much they held it over and asked him to expand on it for another project.

Dungeon accepts unsolicited material, though focusses quite heavily on DnD original material (as opposed to licensed genre material), their guidelines are freeliy available on their website. We know several people who have had material published there. Also Loki has had some success getting material published by SJ Games in Pyramid Online.

Like most things in life, it's 1% inspiration and 99% perspiration. :)
May. 3rd, 2005 11:16 am (UTC)
If it's any consolation, IMHO you're a BNG ;)

And in the opinions of a whole bunch of people I know to boot. So there :P
May. 4th, 2005 03:45 am (UTC)
If it helps, I'm probably kidding myself ^_^
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