Anyway, I told him about
But that, you know, at the back of my mind I always wanted to give it a shot. And how now that I am over 25, I should be able to get Austudy again.
And you know what he said? Go for it. Just like that, without missing a beat. That he thinks I'd do well, as the sort of person that they would want to have in the course (talent aside, that is).
That was fucking awesome of him. Because it has always been one of my secret dreams which I don't talk about for fear of ridicule by those whose opinions I value, and it was the first time I can remember getting any sort of encouragement to try it. To just try it. Regardless of success or failure.
I'm beginning to think seriously about actually giving it a shot for the mid year selections for next year, once I've got this fucking awful degree which I hate out of the way. In the words of William Shatner;
"Live life like you're going to die. Because you're going to."
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and there's also Flinders and CPA in adelaide if you're up for an adventure!
Flinders Drama Centre (where I went) will also give you a BCA if you want one (well, as long as you pass it'll give you one even if you DON'T want one!)
There's only one way to know, and that's to dive headlong into the things that scare you. Most people, as I've found, would kill to know (or admit) their dream. It's not following your dream that is hard, it's working out what it is. Hundreds of millions of people reach the grave without ever asking that question, and that's the most tragic of outcomes.
Do what makes your soul sing. If you act from your center, all barriers will fall before you. People will laugh, people will cry, people will be jealous and vengeful and horrible and lovely and radiant.
But none of that matters, if you do what you KNOW YOU ARE BUILT TO DO, RIGHT HERE, RIGHT NOW.
Good luck. And don't forget that it's okay for dreams to change - just do what you need to for now. And don't go to the grave wondering...
Morgan
..this doesn't sound like madness to me, Bec. And I don't think you should pursue something which makes you so miserable. Finish this thing you started, by all means, but don't feel tied to it - and a bit of a go at something else might be so refreshing, you'll wonder what you've been doing with the rest of your life!
You've been practicising for what 15 years now? I'll bet you have more control over your presentation and emotion than most of the other people before they even begin to start!
I did a year of Asian Studies in Canberra (ANU) before jacking it in to do the Audition Thing *everywhere* (QUT Kelvin Grove, UCQ Townsville, VCA, NIDA, Rusden, uh, somewhere else. About 10 auditions over 2 weeks in 3 cities). Moved to Melbourne, did 3 years of Drama and Dance at Deakin Rusden, very nearly graduated, before running away to teach ballroom dancing and freelance as a lighting tech. Now after 6 years in IT, I'm going back to it - doing lighting and staging stuff, freelancing again, starving, but working for the Circus. And I'm with Morgan - utterly unsurprisingly. Go for it. If you want to chat to someone who isn't biased by being your friend, feel free, but I say do it. At the very least audition. That doesn't have to commit you to anything, and will tell you alot about how much you really want it, I think.
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